February 7, 2010

• Interesting Couple Weeks

  These past couple weeks have been interesting to say the least.

  Ever since I've gotten almost 3,000 dollars from working with my dad and financial aid for college, I've been spending it on small stuff -- whether I needed it or just wanted to buy it for no reason is debatable. Regardless, I've been spending money here and there.

  The first thing that I bought with my mom was an Xbox Live webcam. This isn't absolutely necessary, but I'm starting to get really bored of my life and this will be an attempt to reignite the spark that keeps me going. I've had UNO on my Xbox 360 for a little while, but I don't like to play UNO to play with people -- I like to play UNO because I can do a whole bunch of weird shit on camera WHILE playing cards.

  Back in the day, it was very common to play UNO online and go into a room occupied by three gay men that were masturbating on camera. Maybe not gay...but something is definitely fishy when you're masturbating on camera with two other dudes. I don't do anything bad like that. If you've ever seen The Chins video, that's pretty much what I like to do. I find it funny because I'm a loser. But this is just ONE of the things that are going to make my life a little bit more interesting. I'm trying very hard to watch what I buy, and I believe that it's absolutely necessary. I like human interaction and not just some talking on a microphone. And since I bought a keypad for my 360 controller, I thought...why not? Let's just have the whole deal!

  The next thing that I bought was...a digital watch. I lost my fossil watch a while back and I'm guessing that I left it at my best friend's apartment. The fossil watch costed about 100 dollars, and I figured that if I was going to get something nice...I'd want to get something that could do more than just tell the time. So I bought a 136 dollar digital watch that is supposed to be super duty. Like, it's so ridiculous that if you fell 5 stories...you'd break every bone in your body except that watch ridiculous. Plus the battery relies on solar power and even the lights in your house, and can even auto synchronize the watch. I mean...it's a nice watch for 136 dollars. I think it's going to be totally worth it!

  I've also bought a few video games here and there, but they're both under 30 bucks so it's no big deal.

  But anyways, Laquisha and I are pretty much done. I sealed the deal not so long ago. But you want the juicy stuff, so I'm gonna feed it to you:

  Laquisha and I have always been "romantically" involved and talking about this and that. Having phone sex was our little fling that we had back in the day -- she'd call me up being like "oh this and that" and getting a little bit crazy, and I used to enjoy that kind of stuff because I felt that I couldn't get anything better. In fact, the only reason why I liked Laquisha sexually was because I felt that she was the only one who liked me sexually back. Now that I've lost my virginity and realize that if I really wanted to have sex, I could find me a woman and have sex with her. Essentially, I'm too good for phone sex. What didn't make sense to me was that Laquisha was dating all these guys and telling me all these sexual stories, and at the end of the day...she'd always be dialing my phone number to have imaginary sex.

  It didn't make sense! How could you desire having phone sex when you can get plenty of sex whenever and however you want it? Let's just say that losing my virginity really opened my eyes and exposed the truth.

  Laquisha was just using me. In fact, she is much more of a pussy than I am. And I used to believe that I was the pussy for not having sex with Laquisha when I had the chance (when I was young), but now that we both have cars, we both have enough money, and that we both can make time to go see each other...there is absolutely no excuse as to why you would rather have phone sex instead of real sex.

  I stepped my game up! I said that when she came to Georgia, I would drive up to her house so we could get it on. And ultimately, she changed her mind...which makes it the second time that it's happened. Either I'm not good enough for her, or she's too much of a pussy to do anything. In any case, she was leading me on. At first, she'd call me up and telling me all these things about what's gonna happen when I come see her, and then she turns around and says that it ain't gonna happen. She lead me to believe that she actually wasn't going to chicken out this time.

  And even realizing that, I realized that she never calls me to talk to me. She calls me to express her desires, she wants to have phone sex, and she always calls me during the middle of the night. Because I'm the only one up? Far from it. She calls me because she has no one else to talk to. I'm her last resort.

  Essentially, I had it with that woman. I said that if you don't want to have sex with me, then don't say that you do. If you want to be my friend, then start. Otherwise, get the fuck out of my life. And I said that I don't give a shit what you do because I'm not going to deal with being used.

  ...So now there's no woman in my life. Lol. It's not that I don't mind. Women are needs when it comes to procreation, but as far as relationships are concerns...they're just desires. To be honest, I believe that friends are more important than relationships because typically...friendships last longer because we communicate. Want to come over? Nah, I'm playing video games tonight. Straight forward honest answers that never offends me because I don't have to live my life thinking if my own friends are lieing to me. And when a woman isn't honest with you, you just gotta kick her to the curb. Fuck her...you don't need her, you're better than that! Damn straight I am!

  On a positive note, my cousin is in jail...possibly will go to prison. As far as I know, if she's not going to prison...she'll be in jail for 10 years for committing an armed robbery. Yup. My own 18 year old cousin was in an armed robbery. Marijuana has been such a positive influence in her life </sarcasm>.

  This portion of the entry will be in another private entry due to ranting content.

  I'm really tired cause around 9:30 this morning, my grandfather called me and wanted me to move my great grandmother's oxygen tank so she could get some oxygen. After that, I went back to sleep. An hour later, my great grandmother comes in and asks if I can open up the garage door. At that point, I was like "ALL RIGHT. I'M UP!" But I can't complain. I should be able to go to sleep tonight.

  But I went to Sport's Authority today and bought myself a mat to do pushups and sit ups on. I also bought a jump rope. I'm gonna start trying to get into the work out mood by doing small activities...nothing serious right now.

  That concludes my entry.
  

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