January 11, 2011

  • Day 2: Changing a few things

     

    A couple important things to mention before I start talking about this "plan" I've set for myself that's pretty exciting. Around 7 PM on January 9th, 2011, it started snowing. It took me by surprise because everyone was suggesting that we were gonna have this big "ice storm." Living in Georgia and not having a snow storm since the blizzard of 1993, I didn't feel too optimistic about weather predictions. The weather forecast suggested that it was going to snow sooner, so I lost my patience with the snow and decided to move on with my life. However, going into the garage, at some point, I looked outside and realized that it was snowing really bad; it definitely caught me by surprise. It snowed all throughout the night and some people suggest that we got 5 inches of snow. To Canadians, this is no big deal; to us Georgians, it's a state of emergency. Because we're in a state of emergency, schools have been closed, pretty much, all throughout Georgia. Technically, school started on Monday, January 10th, but the weather conditions have made it unsafe to drive and therefore I'm still waiting to go to school. Here's the classes that I'm taking:

     

    • Macroeconomics
    • Calculus I
    • World Lit II
    • Intro to Social Problems (Sociology)

    It's going to be an interesting semester, to say the least. As most of you don't know, I withdrew from World Lit I for a couple reasons: my teacher was a biatch, and I was failing the class. So I never completed World Lit I but people insist that there's only a difference in material. It's like taking World Lit I twice -- or at least that's what I'm hoping. It's also my last semester at GPC which means, quite simply, that I need the figure out what the fuck I'm going to do with my life. I'm thinking about learning about automotive, just to see if it's something I want to do, but I can't be attending colleges and pursuing different things at once. Psychologically, this is going to be my toughest semester yet. And arguably, I have tough classes. The good thing is that I "supposedly" picked good teachers, according to ratemyprofessor.com. So yes, very interesting.

     

    With that being said I want to talk about something that I'll be working on for the next several months.

     

    When I was a kid, I spent most of my time being productive and spending time outside. Most importantly, I was involved with a sport that I loved: soccer. I was a really good soccer player, I enjoyed doing it, and I was also maintaining a healthy lifestyle. Eventually I quit playing because video games consumed my life. Meeting my best friend on Xbox Live was no help, and I frequently found myself playing games for as long as possible. I was still kind of productive and at a healthy weight, but when shit hit the fan in 2003, shit hit the fan. I lost a lot that night when my mom and I had that argument: I lost my self-respect, I lost the love of my mother, and I lost the motivation to take care of myself. After being kicked out of my mom's house, things started getting worse as far as my body is concerned. 

    I moved into my grandparent's house weighing in the 100's, but 7 years later...I'm 234 pounds. I've gained probably about 100 pounds since I've moved in. According to BMI, I'm morbidly obese. I frequently find myself playing with my own man tits and jiggling my own fat because I never would've dreamed that I'd have this type of body because as far as I was concerned, I was a heart throb. Being so used to girls throwing themselves at me, I thought I was relatively attracted and thought that I was pretty damn sexy. I was full of myself, essentially. But all of that changed when I started getting fat.

     

    Being fat just adds onto my list of problems. Considering it's a new year, I think that it's time to start making some changes in my life. Not big changes, mind you, but potentially big changes. Right now, I'm working on two important things that can have a drastic effect on my calorie consumption:

     

    1. I eat after 8 PM, sometimes even before I go to bed. 
    2. I drink a lot of Coke.

    So, as you can imagine, my two goals is to cut back on Coke, essentially battling my addiction to caffeine and stop drinking soda all together, and also I'm not eating during the night. Not drinking soda is one thing, but not eating during the night has really bothered me because I feel hungry as hell. I drink water throughout the night, most importantly before I go to bed, because it helps battle that feeling of hunger and allows me to sleep. As you can imagine, I wake up hungry. My grandparents suggest that it's "not healthy" to go to bed hungry, but I talked with a guy at the gym several days ago about my eating habits and he said for me to not eating during the night as all the food is turned into stored fat. Having some background in Psychology, it made sense to me. He also said to eat four times a day, but that would require making my own food, perhaps buying my own food, and seems like too much work at this point. I like the fact that I'm taking baby steps on goals that are within my reach, and I feel that it will set off a chain reaction to other things. A lot of people go into a new year with these "resolutions" that are too generalized. Considering the fact that America is one of, if not, the most obese countries in the world, a lot of people want to "lose weight." I just don't do that. See, if I set realistic goals and I continue to achieve small goals, I'll gather motivation better and work towards "losing weight" more efficiently. Sure, it'd be nice to lose weight, but it's GETTING to that point is the problem. And so, that's what I'm trying to do now. Day 1. Many more to come.

    As of 3:47 AM, I weigh 228 pounds. 

     

    EDIT @ 10 PM:

    I'm also trying to control my portions and it's been difficult considering the fact that I've only eaten twice today. Considering I only ate twice today, I had to eat something after 8 PM because I was really hungry to the point that I wouldn't be able to sleep so I had some white rice and green beans (not the best combination but helped fill up the sex tank).