August 5, 2010

• Horrible Day

  Before I left for Texas, my best friend kept talking about how much money I was going to earn working for his dad, and how I'd be able to buy a new computer with that amount of money. I was excited because it was a perfect opportunity for me to spend time with David and his new girlfriend, earn a lot of money, and get valuable job experience working with his dad. In all honesty, things didn't go quite as planned. There was a lot of drama during my visit in Texas: his girlfriend and him were constantly arguing, I spent more money than I earned on the stuff that we needed, and a lot of small things that eventually built up. We had good times going out and doing things, but it was stressful for me. I can't argue too much because my best friend, y' know, has bills to pay and a lot of pressure on him to make money so that he could make a living. Nonetheless, I'm not going to say that I had a bad time, but it was kind of stressful and things could've been different. Regardless of what happened, I was there to mainly spend time with my best friend.

  During my visit, there's been a couple words spilled out that really questioned whether I should've gone or not. One time, I commented on David arguing with his girlfriend and someone said that they haven't really argued until I showed up. At that time, I didn't really know what to think of it. I kind of just dropped it because I really didn't feel responsible for their arguments because David was always the type of person to argue regardless of whether he's right or wrong. I could've been a factor, but I felt like it was more of using me as a scapegoat for their problems. I didn't want to explode the situation, so I just brushed the dirt off my shoulders & chest, and continued walking.

  To make a long story short, I went home with 400 dollars less than what I came with. I spent a lot of money helping with groceries, restaurants, and I even payed David's first apartment bill. Supposedly, David's dad owed me 200 dollars, but the afternoon after I asked David if he could get the money for me, he never got it. I thought that was unnatural because David usually explains why the situation happened the way it did. At the time, I just thought that David had a lot going on, a lot of bills to pay, so I just kind of let it go and went back to Georgia expecting everything to be okay.

  But apparently, things weren't okay. Apparently, our friendship was on the line. Ever since I left Georgia, has been mad at me. I wasn't sure of what was going on because we didn't really talk on the phone for a month. I just thought that we needed some time to ourselves. After a while, I started noticing that I was being ignored. This struck me as weird because David is not afraid of anyone; he will tell anything to your face regardless of whether it hurts you or not. I felt that if David had something to say to me, then he would've said it to me already and we would've talked about it, and came to an understanding. Our friendship was so strong because of that very reason -- we've had a lot of problems, but we've always been able to understand each other and move on with our lives.

  But this time was different.

  It became blantly obvious that David and his girlfriend were trying to avoid me. For the most part, they succeeded. At that point in time, I had no idea why they were avoiding me. I figured it was because I didn't put forth effort to call David sometimes, but I couldn't find out because I was ignored. I tried calling several times on his girlfriend's phone, and my phone call was always forwarded to voicemail. Then I tried contacting David through Xbox Live. Sure enough, he was on Modern Warfare 2. I sent him several party chats, I sent him a couple messages apologizing for whatever I did and that I just wanted him to talk to me. Regardless of the fact that I caught him online, he still ignored me and I was left with no response.

  Over a short period of time, I grew frustrated that my best friend wouldn't put effort into talking about the problem that we were having. I assumed that he was just having a reason to defriend me, to justify his reason for not being my friend anymore. I was thinking about a lof of things. I became desperate and all I wanted was an answer. I told him that I wouldn't care if he didn't want to be my friend anymore, I'd just wanna know why he was pissed off at me.

  Today was my last opportunity talk to David. He was on Modern Warfare 2, and I decided to sneak on and catch him in the server. After playing Forza Motorspots 3, I went offline and popped in my MW 2 CD. At first, I was unsuccessful getting in the server, but the second time I was in the server. I asked David why he was avoiding me, but Nick said that David had me muted. At that point, I became extremely pissed off.

  I kept calling his girlfriend's phone -- I probably called it over 15 times. After that, I tried messaging David and getting him in a party so we could talk it over. No success. At that point, I was in tears almost. I sent David a message on Facebook saying that we've been best friends for a long time, and I'm sorry for whatever I did. Then, I deleted David off my friend's list and Xbox Live. I was helpless and I didn't know what else to do.

  Finally, I was informed by Nick that David was mad at me because I was mean to his girlfriend. Nick informed that David already told me about me being mean to his girlfriend, which I was unaware of and never heard him say about being mean to girlfriend, and that he wanted me to apologize. So I did the last thing that I was going to do -- I called his girlfriend's phone one last time and spilled my heart out saying "I'm sorry for hurting you. I didn't intentionally try to hurt you. I sincerely apologize to both you and David. I just wanna move on, David is my best friend and I don't want him out of my life. So I just wanna solve this issue and I want David to call me."

  As of right now, I have not heard from David. I don't know whether he's planning on calling me or not, but now that I know why he was upset, I will be able to move on with whatever decision that he decides to make. Regardless, I have been feeling kind of down today because of what's been going on. And I hope that David will call me, and we'll be able to talk it out and everything will be back to normal. If not, then what else can I do? It's all a matter of patience.

  At least school is starting up and I got a bunch of computer parts coming in the mail and I'm excited about being productive...learning about how to build a computer. So worse case scenario is that David and I stop becoming friends (which is a very serious situation and will be very tough to deal with because I expected to move in with him after College and such), but I will be playing decent computer games and keeping my mind preoccupied with school work and focusing on my future.

  So...we'll see how it goes.

  • 10:34 pm
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