At this very moment, my girlfriend is either:
a) asleep
b) having fun with a bunch of girls (the term commonly known as "girl's night")
It's probably option B, because the ear plugs that we bought are decent but they aren't THAT great. Several years ago when I had to hear Fleetwood Mac for the whole damn night, I realized that I'm only a heavy sleeper when I fall asleep. Before that point, any disturbing sound could wake me up. Kathleen is worse than I am, but she can't drink a whole lot without starting to have an upset stomach. Last time she had Girl's night, it was at the dorm -- instead of being financially smart about the whole thing, I decided to fork out 40+ dollars for a night at some 3-4 star hotel. I'm not going to lie, it was actually pretty cool to get out, spend time with myself, and brainstorm book ideas (which I later all trashed). Instead of spending more money on a hotel again, I decided to just stay at home all Friday and wait till tomorrow morning to leave. It actually works out for me because my store manager is going to be working tomorrow morning, and I really need to get the ball rolling on the whole Brazil thing. The plane tickets have been bought, and I'll be in Brazil for a month -- with or without my job. However, I'm trying to keep my job...but first I have to go through the ultimate challenge which is confront my store manager about it. Everybody else has pretty much approved of it, but she's gotta finalize it and say that it's all right before I know for certain what's going to happen. In the mean time, I was able to clean my room before my grandmother comes home on Sunday, and I was able to help my grandfather put Christmas decorations in the attic. I wrote a list of all the things I need to pack tomorrow morning before I leave so I won't forget anything important -- I could do it now, but I need to get my mind into get early in the morning. I plan on waking up super early, like 7:30 AM so I can be down at my girlfriend's dorm early in the morning before she wakes up so I can climb in bed with her and sleep some more. My store manager should get there at 7:30, ideally, so I'll be able to have a little conference and be on my way.
This past month or so has been pretty crazy though. I had the flu not so long ago, and then not long after...I caught my girlfriend's cold that resulted in me losing my voice and dry coughing. I didn't know where I got the flu considering she had the cold at the time, but I know for a fact that I got the cold from her because she had the same symptoms. I was working one night and started feeling really weak at work -- ended up with the chills and a 103 fever that same night. Now I can't speak very well, and I just got through weakness a couple days ago. At this point, I need to shut my mouth and let my body recover but haven't been able to because I'm working. Of course, my girlfriend is still coughing, but we've both been sick off and on for a while now and I'm really starting to get concerned. The good news is that I got health insurance -- worst case scenario is I pay to get a check-up and give them my arm for a prescription or something of that nature. I'm more concerned with my girlfriend, however, because...well...she's my girlfriend and she's been sick just a little bit longer than I have. Supposedly there's a lot of cold/flu cases going around this year. I think I even read somewhere that it's the most ever in like a billlion years. I don't know.
I don't want anyone to feel bad for me, but I don't really have anyone anymore to spend time with besides my girlfriend. Normally I'm okay with that because I spend my quality time with her as much as possible, and she's also my best friend. However, when she has plans with her friends and others, a thought crosses my mind that maybe I could utilize my time by hanging out with friends as well. The only difference is, of course, we don't have a "boy's night" and it's more of a catching up on old times, going out for a bite to eat, and sharing funny stories. Considering I can't really talk, I don't really blame myself for not trying to hang out with someone. I can think of a few people who might would've been able to, but I didn't really think about it for too long. I spent most of my day playing Skyrim -- recently downloaded the DawnGuard add-on, so I got hooked up with more adventures. Searching caves and shooting rabbits with arrows isn't my preferred activity during a Friday night, but it was nice to kick back and enjoy the silence. Besides, I didn't want to get my mind on my girlfriend because I would've done something stupid if I thought about her for too long...like renting a damn hotel room just for the sake of being closer to her. And you know? I would've done it again if I had a laptop, but based on my last entry...it's still broken. I really plan on getting it fixed because it was really something special to me, but right now it's just laying in my room getting old. Just like me. I'm slowly starting to realize that I'm not saving a whole lot of money considering I got Netflix and a subscription to LA Fitness with my girlfriend. It's cheaper than my grandfather's gym, but I'm just not going. I'm not getting my money's worth, and I really should give a shit but I don't. My muscle is pretty much non-existent, my stomach is getting to be American sized, and shit is going down this year. Don't get me wrong...this year is off to a good start considering I'm taking a full load of classes and trying to transition into a University system for Fall semester, but then there's that lingering problem of NOT KNOWING WHAT THE FUCK I WANNA DO WITH MY LIFE. Which is juuuuuussssstttt perfect, right? My academics would look pretty damn good if I had an idea of what I wanted to do a long time ago, but now is crunch time and I haven't gotten the faintest idea. Still. But I've been doing what my girlfriend says, and that's pretty much it. We're trying to get there, all right? I'm trying.
I don't suspect my girlfriend will call me tonight. I would've given her huge brownie points if she had called me before she went to bed, which she still might, but won't hold it against her if she doesn't. But to hear her voice and tell me that everything went great and that she's going to bed would make me feel a little bit better about sacrificing some time out of my schedule for my girlfriend to have fun. That's what a good boyfriend does, right? I think so. But if she does call me, and EVEN if she wakes me up, I'll still give her loads of kisses when I get there and we lay back down to go to sleep together...how a weekend night should be.
Gonna be a busy weekend for sure! Need to go to bed before I decide to stay up all night. Need to rest my voice so I can talk to my store manager today to get everything in order.
Regardless, I'm going to Brazil. No matter what. It's a done deal. It's gonna happen.
I'm finally going to meet her family.
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