March 26, 2013

  • Mah Birthday

    The one thing you should never do when studying for a test is stay up all night to study for it...which is exactly what I did last Wednesday night. On Wednesday, I got home from work at 10 PM and had work at 6 AM the next day along with a Spanish test. I figured that I might as well study for the whole night, and accomplish whatever I needed accomplished. I went to work at 6 AM the next day feelin' like you just stayed up all night studying for a test. I work in the meat department, and it's always cold as hell back there. I had to organize some shit, so I ended up sluggin' 40 pound boxes all over the place until snot was dripping out of my nose. By the time I was finished, I was sweating, deep breathing, and pissed off. I wanted to go the fuck home but our newest co-worker was working today, and he's not 100% able to work the department in the morning by himself. No one should really open up the department by themselves but sometimes it happens. With all my stuff going on, I just wanted to do my shit and get out of there. I wanted to ask my Spanish teacher some questions about the test so that I could understand things a little bit better, so I wanted to leave a little bit earlier. Normally Kroger doesn't have a problem with that, but I failed to tell my store manager that I was leaving. The reason why I didn't tell my store manager was because I wanted to tell her, but she kind of pushed me off and didn't think anything I had to say was really important. Considering I was tired, I kinda got pissed off about that because I considered it rude and disrespectful; mostly because she's the store manager and she was in the building walking around. When you walk into your job's building, you can't just push anyone aside. Sometimes, before I clock in (or clock out), a customer might come up and ask me for something. What do you think I'm gonna say to that? "Sorry. I'm off work right now. Can't help you." You have a certain responsibility that you need to fulfill. Unless you aren't working for the day, then I don't see why you can't help someone. I was just gonna ask her for something and she brushed me off when she wasn't even busy. I waited for her to get to work so I could tell her as soon as possible so that she'll understand that I'm gonna leave at 12 instead of 1 PM, but she became an inconvenience to me because I had to wait even longer to tell her important information. So I just decided...to hell with it. If you're gonna inconvenience me, then I'm gonna inconvenience you. I didn't think it would be a problem considering the fact that my other co-worker was working and he would've had to only endure an extra hour by himself in the afternoon. The very least, he just had to stand at the service counters and weigh some shit up for some customers so it's never really a big deal. But 11:30 AM rolls around, she comes up, inspects our department, and says that I need to do the seafood service counter over again. 

    The seafood service counter isn't easy to set-up. It's a tedious process even if it's a simple concept. Apparently I fucked up certain things, added too much ice, and she told me to do it all over again. By the time I got the seafood case down to the beginning of setup, I had to go. I had shit to do. I told my co-worker I was leaving at 12, and I wasn't gonna wait. I told him "sorry" and that I didn't anticipate something like this to happen. We've been having to change some shit around, and I wasn't exactly sure where everything went. About 90% of the case was correct, but the 10% was what resulted in me having to do the service case. Since it was 12 PM, I slipped out of work to wash off the smell of fish off my body at home so that I could talk to my teacher and study for my test. As I went to school, I realized that working made shit even worse; now instead of having Spanish on my mind, I was pissed at my store manager for coming around our backs and making me do something right before I'm about to leave. I was sleep deprived and pissed, so you can imagine that I went into this test not very excited. When I finally got to do the test, I didn't know what the fuck I was doing. I skipped an entire section because I forgot how to do something, and my brain wasn't clicking. I wanted to go the fuck home after the test and go to sleep, but I had to attend my Computer Science class in case he gives a review or examples of what's gonna be on the next test. The test is Thursday, so I've gotta find time between then to create a study guide and shit like that. In between classes, I'll be doing homework so I won't have to do it during the night.

    The only reason why I made Thursday was because of my birthday. I was excited about celebrating my birthday with my girlfriend, so I accepted the fact that I probably failed the test. I went to sleep around 9:30 PM and had the greatest sleep this year so far. It was one of those sleep deprived sleeps where you wake up and don't even have a concept of time. I didn't even know why my alarm clock was going off; I think I woke up faster than my brain rebooting.

    Friday night was a kinda emotional night for me considering Spartacus is about to end and something happened to the point that I started to cry. Something happened to one of my favorite characters in the show, and it really hit close to home.
     It was pretty much an average weekend with my girlfriend until Sunday rolled around and she cooked me a dinner of my choice. For some reason, I was craving rice, corn, and chicken...so she cooked all those things and it was delicious. I ate about three bowls of rice, and I don't regret a thing. She also gave me an envelope that consisted of a ticket to ride in Rusty Wallace's nascar car (or something like that) on the Atlanta Motor Speedway. To me, that's really freakin' cool. I've always wanted to know what it's like going fast, but I've always wanted to do it legally and with a car to do it with. I won't be driving the car, but riding is still going to be an adrenaline rush. I'm sure there's going to be an option for me to take videos in-car camera for a certain price (hopefully not too expensive), and maybe I'll get a picture with a signature on it. I don't know. It's gonna be super fun, and it's going to be in May. May is the awesome month of the year, apparently.

    When I came back to work on Monday, a manager pulled me aside and told me that my store manager was pretty pissed that I left early. I told him about how I felt about the whole thing, that I know I'm ultimately responsible, but I told him that it could've been prevented if she had listened to me in the first place. Kroger isn't going to talk to me about being a "team" when there's segregation of managers and associates. But of course...no one really cares about what I think.

    This weekend will be kind of difficult for me because I'll be going with family to a family reunion of some sort in North Carolina. My sister is going and everyone else is going, so I don't want to feel like I'm not being part of the family. My dad thinks I'm a stranger and that I'm excluding myself from the family, but that's his own personal opinion...which everyone is entitled to. He's wrong, but you can't please everybody. I'm growing up, you know? I found something that keeps me pre-occupied and feelings of ANY kind of motivation, so I'm gonna keep doing what makes me happy. It has come at a cost, for instance not being able to see my sister as much, but we still hang out every now and then. Kinda sucks that she has cats in her apartment because I'm allergic, but...what can you do? It's gonna suck because I won't be able to see the next episode of Spartacus with my girlfriend (or even at all). She may not be able to either considering she's got another "girl's night" and she expects to be home by 10 PM to watch the episode. Oh...my baby sure is funny. The thing I've learned about college kids in university is that they sleep all day during the weekend and stay up all night...which is great if you're 14 and it's summer vacation. But after 20? It's like...can't tell if you're too boring during the day time or a vampire. If you're a vampire, then I completely understand going out during the night time.

    I'm just glad I'm not working tomorrow. My grandmother on my mom's side of the family gave me 30 bucks for my birthday and  10 dollar lottery ticket (I didn't win anything). I almost used the 20 dollar bill to buy a 20 dollar lottery ticket, but then I thought about it and realized that I could pay for gas, or even another model car. I never win on those things, and I think Kathleen and I are starting to get addicted. We're getting too desperate, and that's obviously why the thing works out so well. Welpp...I help myself pay for my own college tuition, so it's like giving myself a pat on the back. Gotta stay positive.

    Can't decide if I should read a book, or play some games.